A photo that I took after I’ve tried to put on ALL my jeans that I used to wear comfortably, but NOT ANYMORE ...😫 Hence I have decided to dress up a bit so that I would feel a little bit better. 😔
I was seriously frightened by the way I eat and the amount of my food intake i consume in the past few months. I put on a lot of weight within a very short period of time. My emotion was like a roller coaster.
Although I’m really grateful that people who love me still say I’m looking great, but the weight gain really stresses me out.
I want you to know that we are all beautiful in our own way with different skin colour, shape of body etc that god makes us to. It’s just a different perspective on my preferred body shape. I then started to observe myself, study the pattern, and do a lot of researches on how mental health and emotional issues can affect my hormones, eventually affect my diet and causing the eating disorder.
It’s not just a discipline workout routine, a clean diet or a positive affirmation. It’s more about a constant battle within myself and my mind. (Some of you might not get what I’m talking about, but I believe there’s someone out there who can relate to this.)
Trust me, I really don’t feel comfortable expressing my feelings and my conditions, especially on my social media. 😢 As u know, there’s so many beautiful and positive posts out there, and I definitely don’t want to be someone who’s sending out negative energy, but that’s not my purpose and definitely not my intention.
Just like what I have said before, to HONOR THE BEAUTY THAT ARISES IN US, I am learning to be true to myself, embrace myself and love myself in whatever conditions I’m in. It’s not just about managing my weight; it’s also about improving my general wellbeing - MY BODY, MY MIND, AND MY SOUL. 🌹
Another reason that I’m sharing this it’s bcuz I believe that there might be some of you out there that are experiencing the same thing just like I do. If you are in the same situation like me. I want to encourage you, I want to tell you that, don’t worry, YOU WILL FIND YOUR WAY BACK!💪🏻 It’s on the way and I’m more than happy to help. 💞
I’ve found my way back.
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